Memory Trouble

There are old sites I visit time to time, one still active, the other barely active. I have troubling remembering moments amongst those sites... good, bad, anything. I even have trouble remembering the friends I made... or how I became friends with them. As I look at my steam friends, mainly ones I made in Antilia... I fear I may end up having trouble remembering them too. There's only a few toontown friends I remember... an odd amount from earth eternal, and a small handful from other MMO's I played. Probably because I'm able to keep in touch with them.

I don't know if it's a mental condition, subconscious blocking, or lack of any meaning I had at those times like it didn't have a huge impact on my life. Now that I think about it, my mind may be blocking them out as it would upset me for missing those times or how horrible it was along with a few.... well... regrets.

Seems a keyword, image, sound, or a mix helps me remember things that I once forgotten, depending if they had a huge impact on my life.

Starting to think the number of times I jumped from one group of friends to another to another may be having a negative affect on me... like I'm trying to replace the old group with a better group and same with the memories. At this time... I really don't want to replace the group of friends I have right now... I would really regret that.

This... fear of being lonely is really affecting me more and more. I'm sure there's a way to fix it, but I may not like the options that are given.