Flashback: Withdrew When Not To

Few months ago on a tf2 server I frequented, the commute took a turn for the worse due to lack of admins for the server as they were more focused on a Jailbreak server (which is 90% problems for everyone). There was this one day I was trying to jump with a player as Medic with the quickfix to get onto a building. (The server had a rubber-band mod for the medic, able to spring towards the healie as both jumped.) As I was doing this a group of, well... elitist sore-winners best way to describe them, were only targeting this one player I was trying to jump with to the roof for... really nothing.

They do it all the time, someone is being them that isn't the regulars, they single them out and grief them till they leave. Admins don't do anything, only admin assigned to the server is never on when he is needed, is only on for a few minutes before leaving despite the server being full.

Nonetheless I was threaten to be treated the same way if I didn't stop healing him, despite I was trying to jump up there but they didn't care. In fact, these regulars don't care about the server or the commute, just their "way of having fun because they can". Childish teenagers... one day they'll look back at this and feel, if they are human, remorse and regret.

Right now got this... bad dark feeling this player is no longer around, and I don't mean for the server or the game, and feel I need to type this out to clear my mind and calm my anger on those players and myself. Should I have yielded? Thinking back on it... no, not really. Not at all. They do it all the time so what difference does it make if they did it to me? So needless to say, feel deep deep regret on it. If there was anything I could change related to that, was record a video, keep healing the player that was being targeted for no apparent reason but to be bullied around, and report the footage to an admin (that I know would do something) and hope for the best.

Only thing majority of the admins are concern about is Jailbreak, when that server is just a double edged axe: Popular but also troubling for all admins and players that it becomes to wonder why it's a thing for the commute. Admins are now primary assigned to that or the trade server these days, nothing else as the other servers are left unguarded and soon to rot to nothing (far as I've noticed).

That's poor adminship, and even poorer if one is a spoiled brat that brags about getting free gifts from players and having a rich inventory, yet has poor judgement, lack of caring, hardly does anything remotely as an admin, whines like a 10 year old for being an admin despite wanted to be an admin very passionately, and is at the top rank of admin. This is something I hope Antilia avoids and has better monitoring for both players AND admins evenly.

But that's for another entry...