Long-Term Answer Found

Recently been cleaning out the basement (laundry room, pantry, living area, guest room) when I came across old school work. I could feel a very strong essence from them that was calling out to me "What you seek is here, search carefully." The answer to a question that has been haunting me for 4 years, at least. The question can't exactly be worded well for anyone, but me, to understand.

Let me put it this way: I've been haunted by an empty void related to my past that I could never figure out, and I knew it had to be somewhere in my past. Safe to say the void is being filled properly, but can't say for certain full or partial. Did find more answers to questions that I never thought before. Either way, the fact I finally found answers is a huge relief. I kept what seems to be important in a box to look over later, out of maybe 5 lbs of paper, whether in staple groups or individual. While what I found affected me emotionally and mentally, in the end felt good to find what I was looking for to begin with. Along with things I've long forgotten, like how to smile and enjoy life.

I feel my haunting past is starting to finally lift away. However, the damage it has caused is still long lasting and will take time to recover, probably faster than before after finding a few remedies to my heavy amount of doubt and fear; time will tell.

I am being vague and cryptic for a reason, as I do not wish to spoil details as this quest is not yet finished. Let's just say, I may have found a new form of confidence in myself, while at the same time not putting too much weight on myself.

The spirit of my youth can finally start to rest after all these years of crying out to me.