AutoCAD

Few days ago I finished a placement exam for an AutoCAD... not sure what to call it, but for now call it an institute. Most of the questions I had no knowledge of answering and a few I gave educational guesses.

The thing is I was given the PDF for the exam for weeks and have been hesitant to go through it. Every time I thought of it or saw it, the scary thought of going back to school would paralyze me for hours to a day straight. ...Always thought I wouldn't be going back to school after dropping out of college due to this unneeded stress and pressure that was looming over me that I was becoming more depressed than I was in high school and prior.

Sigh... but finally just went through it and turned it in. Waiting for the results to see what classes I should start out with. I'm told I only need to take classes that is more related to AutoCAD and not other courses like science, history, literature, etc. I always found that stuff pointless to learn for me and saw no real benefit for me to learn it. Hopefully this will help me get a better paying job so I can be on my own... but I rather not think too far ahead, I'll just jinx it.

I had an interest in AutoCAD back in highschool during my junior year. I did very well in that class and was very into it, really liked it. Other than math classes, it was my favorite. Sadly there was no teacher for my senior year, so I had nothing to help sharpen my skills with AutoCAD nor was there any colleges that offered courses that were nearby at the time. I wasn't comfortable to be living on my own... I was... afraid for many reasons, a major reason being myself on others.

I have improved as a person since I dropped out of community college, and far more since high school. I just... hope I make friends this time in school. Or at least able to connect with someone this time... either way it'll be scary for me... terrifying actually. I'm putting myself in danger of going through depression again by going back to school. I wish I had a friend with me when going...

I never had a tight connection with anyone... I just hanged with anybody I could at least stand to be with so I wouldn't feel so lonely, yet I would be put on the spot for thinking differently to not having anything in common with them. The friends I did make in school I never had the same classes with them by high school, and eventually lost touch with them.

I don't want to go back to school... but this could be my only chance to do something with my life. I just hope I and others involved in this decision don't regret it. I don't know when I'll be attending, how long the courses are, or how many courses I'll be taking.

Right now most of my savings and earnings has been going to medical bills as of this month... 3 years of saving money for a new computer down the drain... hopefully my finances improve soon or I'm gonna be in debt for the first time.