New Year, New Problems

Been feeling much better, done with my antibiotics. Had a few times take it late than the 12 hour period, but all is well!

Happy new year everyone, hope it's starting off good for you all. Mine has started off with paranoia... after a few heated discussions with a friend or two. Everything is fine now on that.

So I have another issue. Hair loss. Noticed the hair line is still retreating or at least thinning out... I have a confession to make. The problem is that I don't bathe regularly than I should. Why? It's a complicated answer...

When I was a child I would throw fits of going into the bath and get easily angry when my parents told me I smelled (and still do). However, the moment I was in the bath I would have a fun time with my bath toys. I still have the same issue with showers too: stubborn to even start it yet once I'm in I'm doing the routine all calmly. There's probably a psychological term for this that would explain it, but overall it's confusing and I wish I knew why so I know how to address it. There's times I have to "swallow my pride" and take the shower or I'll, in a way, internally throw a fit about taking a shower and end up not doing it. I don't show it physically, but keep it inside as to not cause a scene or damages. I don't have a fear for water in terms of shallow level or rain-like, if you're thinking that. Just... stubbornness for childish reasons. It is not a good thing to have and I'm ashamed of still having it and taking into consideration how important it is.

Some of my friends has tried to help me get into a routine habit of it with Habitica (once called HabitRPG), but in the end I'm either too lazy or "too full of pride" to bother or lack continuous motivation... and the priority of it is just not there for me. Doesn't help that I feel itchy in some parts of my head (usually the top) that could also be the cause of my balding, mainly because I don't BATHE!

However, because of my childish, as I'm calling it, negligence to bathe properly it's costing my hair and making me panic and worry every time I see it in a mirror when shaving off my beard. A friend has mentioned vitamins and such, but the food it comes from isn't the problem as I eat those semi-regularly: Biotin, B3, C, Zinc, and Iron. I kept a note of where these vitamins come from based from him along with supplements just in case.

Biotin: Eggs, Almonds, Wheat Bread, and Meats
B3: Meats
C: Oranges
Zinc & Iron: Meats, Beans, Dark Greens

I'll probably do more research regarding those later if need be.

Someone mentioned raisins so I tried those for the past few weeks, but seeing my hair getting worse figured it wasn't helping, wasn't having enough raisins, or eating them on a regular basis to get results. Either way didn't help me about worrying. Figured it's just me not bathing regularly that's the key issue. Has to be the only issue.

I remember seeing results back in last summer, while going on Habitica, when I was bathing every two days for like 2 months give or take a week when I started to see results of thicker hair and what looked like my hair line was coming forward. Then for some reason stopped as I wasn't worrying about it and for some stupid reason thought I only had to deal with it once... NOPE. Continuous issue that I HAVE to keep up.

So I'm going back to Habitica after avoiding it since early September and go make and renew any habits whether my internal self likes it or not! (Have the site pinned so it'll be the first thing I see staring and nagging at me "Did you bathe yet?!".) Besides, regardless of hair, need to bathe regularly anyway and work on other healthy habits.

Hopefully I don't have to go the extra step for Rogaine (read it does help with frontal balding despite what FDA says but can be expensive) or any surgery to solve this problem... I rather not talk to a doctor about this as my friend who mentioned the vitamins also suggested... feels like a last call for me. ...Too young to be going bald, but it's my own fault for not bathing properly in the first place. So in a way, complaining at myself for not taking care of myself.

Also in case you're wondering why I'm putting all of this out here, somehow find it helps me in the first step of tackling it. Recognize the problem, write it down and let it be shown (keeping it private doesn't do me any good) I have said problems, take appropriate steps to address it and see how far I've come when I look back on it.