Birthday Blast

Not being stranded on a highway, being embarrassed at work, gotten games as gifts. This birthday has been very meaningful for me. For once in a long time was I happy to celebrate my birthday. I can't remember the last time I really celebrated my birthday with pride... probably as a child was when I was happy on my birthday. Even though I don't show it much, it does cheer me up inside.

In the past I wouldn't be so happy about it, because I feel I haven't accomplished much to deserve a party, let alone any recognition. Mainly just feel depressed and rather want to sleep the day away. Today however was different, and with real meaning to it as well.

The friends I've made and still in contact from Steam, Antilia, Bronyville (till it became a baron wasteland) and before. I am grateful I've met them while I could. I couldn't have asked for better friends than I have right now. There's a few that I miss and wish to be in contact again, or I wish I was friends with them before they moved on.

Gotten 5 games from friends: Among the Sleep, Home, Five Nights at Freddy's (I helped greenlight it too), Knightmare Tower (got a coupon for it after crafting a badge, a friend used it for me), and an early gift Master Reboot with soundtrack and artbook. Also two steam emotes: Vez'nan and Demoticon.

Any sizable gift is good enough for me. When it comes to gifts, especially those that aren't redeemable, I treasure them dearly. They have a high value to me that no one can buy or trade them off of me. It gives me a sign that I'm doing something right and they're proud of me, or show how much they enjoy their time with me.

While gifts are nice, the best is the friends I made, as stated above. Losing them, even one, would really devastate me--unless there was a sign that things just weren't going to work out then it wouldn't be so devastating. Either way, it's a good sign for me. Even if they don't give me a gift, their friendship is good enough for me, and hope for ever long lasting.

There are a few friends that mean very dear to me, and they know who they are. If it wasn't for them, I would still be a cold hearted jerk refusing to take responsibility for my actions. Hopefully those I have blocked will see that one day, before they reach the point of no return in their lives'.

As for the "Not being stranded on a highway" bit. My car is leaking some sort of oily substance again. At first thought it was rain under the car as it has stormed very recently, but this morning it was more fresh and not dried up. Be sending it to the mechanic for the third time in a row... pray I can get their safely. Thankfully Dad took notice of this.