Entry 27-B

I'm still moaning over the coming loss of my birthplace ToonTown. I first played that game in late spring early summer of 2005. Few years later, Sly was born, eventually grew in and outside of ToonTown, as you see today as either "Blue Sly" or "LongSly".

I want to bring something from ToonTown to Antilia. A memoir, anything that indicates where I original started, something that says, "This is where I was born." I know this doesn't mean much to everyone reading this and have trouble understanding it. Sure, "it was just a game," but it was more than a game to me. It was an escape--no, the ONLY escape from cruel reality of school life at the time. Despite I haven't played it much, there was a good bond in the past. It was the only MMO I ever reached end-content.

I made a vow to myself "I never want to be a cog, I always want to be a toon." Yet as the years gone by, I've lost my sense of being a toon. I've become too negative, grouchy, irritated, annoyed; just really anti-social and shy altogether--even my boss brought that up with my Dad (they're friends, makes you wonder how I got the job). I'm becoming more of a cog than a toon... Constantly getting hammered by cruel reality, forever escaping to a virtual world always in fear of the outside world. Makes me want to only live online and not in reality anymore. The only thing I enjoy doing is playing video games, but there isn't much I can play. Lack of proper hardware or money; mainly the former. Stuck in a corner at this point.

Antilia may be the last proper escape, formally Earth Eternal (before relaunch) for me as an adult compared to how ToonTown was for me while in school. Tried other MMOs--Trickster, Grand Chase, Neo Steam, Maple Story, Earth Eternal--I could play in the past after ToonTown, but didn't feel the same (or completely turned me away either on content, community, or managed; yet stubborn to leave blindly thinking it could get better and/or not feel like a quitter, all cases better off stop playing after day 1 or sensed something wrong).

If I could transfer anything from TT to Antilia, it would be my pet Doodle, Sly.