Long Term Coincidence

This picture, this exact picture, was made 8 years ago, 2006. At that time I was a huge fan of two things for the PS2: Sly Cooper and .hack. Originally made for an avatar on a fansite I went to frequently while a certain MMO was active and in it's early years of success. Originally started my name as Sly, after Sly Cooper of course, eventually changed it to Sly Kite with the picture you see below, and then again to Sly K.

This was made BEFORE LongSly and YlsGnol (Blue and Orange) and before I knew those two colors were exact opposites of each other. At the time of making, was just to express my interest in the two games and franchise.

This is nothing more than a huge coincidence. Tettix didn't know about this. No one in the Antilia commute or those merged from EE knew about it. And I'm surprised I've forgotten all about it till today!

Sly Cooper, an infamous thief stealing from other greater thieves and criminals alike, and not commoners; no honor, challenge, or fun in it. Both viewed as a hero and a criminal while forever pursued by Carmelita Fox, with bit of a love/hate relationship going.

Kite, a player invited to an online game with his friend Orca. Upon teaching Kite the game, an incident happens in-game that puts Orca into a coma. Kite is on a long-term mission to bring his friend back from the coma, believing the key is in the same game, The World. He meets several people along with his journey, few having same goal as him, others different interest of play, but still helpful for his task. Kite's only wish is to play with his friend Orca, without The World being corrupted.

That being said... I feel I am trying to walk in those similar footsteps. I want to play with my friends, while at the same time feel great by challenging myself, best I can and not over bite, against others, and in both cases, have fun. Yet I'm having a difficult time doing those two. I'm rather distant from my friends and trouble having fun when facing against players. I always take it personal, whether I'm the best or the worst. There's something that I'm missing. Something that I am not getting. "It's just a game," is not it. I've been told that too many times that it has no effect on me, despite being true.

Nonetheless this all has me thinking, is there anything else I made years ago coming back again as its real image? Or things I had deep interest/like in? Only a few things come to my mind: Blue's Clues (even in 3rd grade I liked watching it, up till Steve was replaced with Joe), Spy Fox, and Klonoa.

Now that I think about it... recently I changed my steam name to BluePaw, with the picture on the right. Shortly after making it, Blue's Clues came to my mind and a few in the steam chat pointed that out too. Also figured out a few years back that my name, Sly, is also an acronym about my past. Even so that the prefix "Long" emphasis' it. I guess things from my past are catching up to me.

Is my past... telling me something? Is there something I forgotten? Something I lost sight of? Answers are coming to me than me coming to them, and I've been seeking them shortly after I graduated high school.

..Is my curse finally breaking? Or do I still have a long journey ahead of me?

My dreams are also telling me something too... but that's for another entry.