Had a dream once that had a certain female Vulan, holding a polearm with an axe head on the end, leering down at me as I slept in my tent with a mischievous grin on her face. I'm not sure, but I think Tettix may be entering my dreams to mess with me more. Think I may need to bring out my old teddy bear again for comfort.
So the kickstarter is right around the corner now. I am in bit of a dilemma though. On one paw I want to show my support as much as possible, on the other I'm in need of a new laptop (C key is nearly dead, both software and hardware wise). Also, I got some important bills to pay this month and next, that it'll put a bit of a set back. Since the goal is $120,000, sorta expecting one of the backer rewards be at most $1,000 of donation. There has been mention of statues, which brought up an old topic of Longsphinx again, regardless if I'm a top backer or not. Personally, I'd be alright with it if it included the frequent alpha testers too (those that were on for nearly every alpha test prior to the end.) Currently have mixed feelings about it: sure I would feel recognized, but wouldn't feel like I fairly earned it either, you know? Don't think I've contributed that much prior to the kickstarter to be worth given a statue. See if I can earn my way to maybe a plaque at least. We'll see how long the kickstarter will be. Guess I can put my plan for a new laptop on hold... huge conflict of interest.
The new reputation system, Jen, is starting to depress and stress me. Already I'm at 4 Bad Jen, making someone a pancake out of random isn't good apparently. So far it's just me and another user that have Bad Jen, me at the highest right now, far as I can see. This system is going to and will drive me insane and depressed. I'm that self-conscious. There has been an idea of some sort of reset or expiration, which will make me feel more comfortable with the system than it is now. I may end up sheltering myself out of the community, especially if I'm not sure what got bad jened (regardless by whom). I know what the three were, the other I don't know really. Believe to have gotten balanced out by the time I noticed. I am fortunate that I have a pretty high Good Jen though. Trying my best to not think about it so much. This Jen system is gonna ruin my fun and force me into isolation once again...
I would say get your bills paid first. Set money aside for both your laptop and the kickstarter, of course, but things like bills come first in my opinion. Don't worry if you feel like you won't be giving enough for the kickstarter, just give what you can afford to give. Also, the kickstarters I've seen have last for about 30 days anyway so that should give you enough time to get something. Not only that, but Jeff also mentioned possibly opening up to paypal users for the kickstarter so if you can do that, it may buy you even more time, considering paypal donations are not timed along with the kickstarter.
ReplyDeleteAs for the Jen system, you're doing just fine in my opinion. You got way more good Jen then a lot of other people on the forum and that's saying something. You are an important part of the community and it would be pretty sad just to see you drop out because someone doesn't understand you or is just trying to make you feel bad.
Lastly, about your dream, all I can say is think happy thoughts before bed. Listen to some peaceful music, ect. It helps for me sometimes.
Hoped this helps some. :)